I remember now .....

“Play the opening like a book, the middlegame like a magician, and the endgame like a machine.” – Rudolph Spielmann

And remember: As above
So below ..

As we were kids once and formed groups/societies/cliques, we used to test any new member for quality .. be it a test for speed. A test for logic . A test for honesty .

Why wouldn't you think that God's kingdom also tests you ? Right now ?

I dispised these current times , I have had no meaningful dreams anymore for a while now . As if .. I was excluded from home . Until I one night jumped up, took to pen and paper, and wrote some pages . Pages full of ideas finally coming to paper, which I ignored for weeks! I challenged myself to not be lazy this time , and I finally wrote them down .

The same night, I experienced the most powerful dream I could ever recall. Though this time , I was not dragged to a specific place to figure my way out on my own . I was not guided anywhere this time. I did not have to do any tests anymore . I did not travel to any other place. this time, it was no holiday or work trip. In fact , I went back to the beginning, where I was growing up , a building crashed, I was holding the hands of my loved ones dearly, finally letting go. I saw an animal that did not exist in this world , but to come closer to it , to deserve it , I must face something ....... I must go through myself ... As I initiated something big . My whole life flashed before my eyes , not by any other force , but it was MY vision . I brought these visions forth! I challenged myself to relive , like a movie , with every vision I gained wisdom, with every scenario i gained power , in every pain and doubt i gained .... myself ...
The animal was surrounded by mirrored patterns . As i went through one of the stages.. a pattern disappeared . And i could see the animal closer . The mirror might represent distraction in this world, how distracted we are , never seeing truly even what we are striving for .
I relived pain to understand truth
I relived all the beautiful moments to understand truth
I relived the horrible doings of this realm to understand truth
Until I became truth .

I was forged in the fire .


"God knows where I've been 🔥💀
Dark clouds come for me"
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"God knows where I've been 🌟🌈
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The song that played as i woke up ..as always perfectly resonated ... I broke down in tears .. saying "what is this place beautiful ?" As i saw that on my t shirt was a black and white chess pattern , in the front a small logo and in the back the big logo ,... representing that you will never truly see the big but be assured that as above ... so below .. .

I went down to the kitchen , nobody was there , as I looked outside there was a green bird which flew to my other birds . .. looking for shelter 🦜 .. I used to wear all blue 💙 but .. experienced the full ray of it . Now , since a few weeks I changed my theme to green , my nails are green , the grey area in the garden suddenly after many years grew grass , I travel and people wear green ten times after another 💚... what a great gift from God I've received . Its a reassurance that I will never be alone .

Now , remember . We see because we have eyes to see . Because we are worthy of the truth

Anyone proudly calling themselves atheist just announced that they're already rotten.