It makes me really happy when my hyperfixations stay with me without turning sour. When I thinks about things one, three, four years later and just thinking about them makes me smile a little.

When I finish something and I say “I want this to change me forever” I mean this.

I really don’t like April’s fools day.

Oh wow I’ve not posted anything for more than a week

I still have nothing to post

But I’ll say this

You know it’s a hyperfixation when you’ve kinda been normal abt it in your head and then someone asks you to talk/do something about it and it’s like they’ve hammered down a dam. It’s a mix of joy and desperation and thank god I don’t do drugs

Yeah and you’re crying the whole time

Come on brain you can’t start feeling nostalgia for bleach ffs come ON

Sorry this is sending me

Going back to the gym today. Very nervuos. It’s not WL and not my old gym, so who knows. I’m afraid I’ll be stuck with one of those bullshit programs they always give to inexperienced girls