ok????

oh my god. yes. same.

i keep asking myself what did i do a couple of days ago. my planner does the job of remembering, not me

thats a fucking call out

alright, were back to the bpd mood swings!! even tho id call them a mood carousel

- woke up feeling kind of energized, slept relatively well
- had a good breakfast
- was chill for a little bit
- made my bed, sorted out my clothes, still feeling productive and ready for the day
- took my meds and they kicked in with severe side effects. got super frustrated from that.
- started working and couldnt get into the working mode, was distracted for a while
- went into the work mode and.... mood started to decrease.
- decided to stop working early to rest, and to make some food. mood is neutral, im starting to feel empty and falling into the void
- currently im enraged and close to giving up, lock myself in my room and never come out
- currently full of hate and desperation. cant look myself in the mirror
- i miss my dad so much
- cried a shit ton. it hurt so much that my sobs were just screams sometimes
- feeling better, talked to my dm about my next character
- call over, i had fun, so kinda calm???
- horny all of a sudden????
- i let out some of the steam, writing and ranting. finally in a good mood.
- felt productive, did my chores that i was procrastinating on for weeks.

very fun times, everyone

mood

just went through 3 different emotions in the span of an hour
fun.