No luck this time at the Mongolian wrestling competition in Friuli. Only open weight and my first opponent is an Hungarian monster around 40 or 50 kg more then me.

I do what I can, but with my lack of skills and his superior strength and weight he throws me across the fighting camp while I was trying to put a guillotine.

My pride is wounded for a couple of hours but after a pizza and a drink I'm ready for 2 swordfight competitions with medium/heavy contact rules.

I get silver on both of them, winning a total of 10 fights and losing two.

I'm overall satisfied but I need far more training in my grappling skills.

Be aware of victory and be humble in it. I was so satisfied about my pankration matches in March that I didn't give enough importance to this historical sport event.

Lesson learnt.

Kristian was 160 kg when he started to hang out with us.

Just out of depression, alone, with serious drug problems.

He wasn't able to walk in the woods without vomiting every 30 minutes.

Today Kristian is 100kg.
He trains boxing and kick boxing.
He is able to provide help, to hike for hours, he eats clean, he doesn't use drugs.
He works and he is able to attend every moot.

He is 49 years old.

Your will is your weapon of mass destruction.

Stay focused in order to live the moment.

The Moment is everything during the fray.

This is why you need strong companions and iron discipline.

It is good to have hobbies, enjoy life and take it easy, but without the ability to say "fuck it" to everything that is not discipline, it's worthless, I would say even weak, to revel in comfort.

So fuck it, and live the moment, where the moment can fuck up your eyes, bones and blood.

Nothing is more divine then spending time in order to be prepared for that moment.

Do not mistake Honor for Moralism.

Honor is a masculine driven sense of respect that involves renown, fame and a militant discipline, in order to recognize the best thing to do and the best behaviour in order to uphold your dignity and consequently, your people dignity.

Which means, honor may looks immoral to the weak and the one who screams for a world made up by the equation "vice equals freedom", where you can behave as you wish in order to fulfill your urges.

Let's be honest here : honor may look immoral even for the common man.

Moralism is not negative per se, but it doesn't involve honor.
Moralism is a sense of justice, and it may be even wrong. It is a shade of gray and a matter of perspective leaded by your social and political or religious view.

Honor is not a shade of gray.
Honor is living imagining your best ancestors constantly looking on you. It is to respect who defeated you but it is also accepting he's taking something for you, something he conquered and he should preserve.

Honor is an aggressive mindset, because without balls and without the need to prove your physical and mental skills in a moment of pressure, you can't prove your honor, you can't even prove you're a man.

Plain and simple. Honor is taking what you need with respect, but still, it is to take, and not always like a gentleman despite the effort.

Make honor dangerous again.

Tribal gathering for Baldr's Light celebration.

Every tribe member brings with him a story of struggle and inner shame.

We share, discuss, fix together.

And violence.
Lot of violence.

Many asked an open moot, or a way to meet us.

We are working on something in order to share with you a bit of what our tribe is, one of our way to deal with the world and one of the main pillar of our philosophy.

Too early to share right now the exact point, but it will a way , a flag, to unite strong willed people, a call to action in order to meet only the best of the best and improve our environment.

Many consequences of the industrial world strike constantly our mind, with anxiety, fear and sloth.

We want to share a counter-strike.

Hands of a demon, head of a god.

We need both.
One the hugest mistake we do, is to have a dualistic sense of existence where everything we do must embody a side or the other one.

Those sides are probably real, but our need to see our actions on one of the two, is just an illusion.

Many in our tribe have practical skills. The men fights, have mechanical, survival and agrarian skills. The women create and take care of the land. One of my duties is to kill, butcher, and skin.

"You should try to kill a beast of your size"
No, the one who kills in nature is a killer not a warrior.
"You don't have emotions".
I take them out from the womb, feed them and take care of them for months.
"You don't kill in a ethical way".
I kill with the knife to eat, and the illusion of mercy for a kill, is just black magic from livestock corporations in order to consume.

Those sample conversations shows how fake duality may be in stupid conversations.

The "why" it's not always important as much as the "how".

The irrationality of nature will always clash with the mechanical moralism used to ignite fear, fault and control. Because it makes dualism crumble.

When I kill, I feel nothing.
I gain nothing.
I am nothing.
It keeps me silently grateful.
It is nothing special.
There is no side.

Ask yourself the "how", and you will see, there are no real sides.

For all of you who deal with anxiety.

You probably did a choice.

Stop asking yourself why people around you seems happy despite an industrial work, a slave like routine, or a life spent around vices.

The weight of freedom is made up by an uncertain future, the smell of troubles, and to sense that something in the standard world is rot and wrong.

Remember: everything it's a symptom.

You are just feeling the wrong.

So, it means you can react.
You did the right choice.

View from Wolfsbühel, Col Del Lupo, Dolomiti of northern Italy.

Don't be a fool.
Happiness is a concept. There is no true sense of happiness. It is mostly an illusion for people who chose the path of inhibition.

There is only post pressure satisfaction.

Don't take us or me for motivational speaker.  We just write down some insights from our life, but personally, the modern concept and understanding of happiness is bullshit.
It's vague.

If you seek freedom, or greatness if intent, you will not find "happiness". There is only struggle and most likely loss. More you go out, more the machine will try to stab your back, legs and whatever is in the middle.

Freedom is a deliberate choice of courage against oppositions, it is acceptance of constant pressure and a good fucking bye to most of your hobbies and whatever you use as entertainment.

Nothing else.
Expect nothing.

Want happiness? Go back to politics, factions, bills, and other inhibitors.

Do not play the victim in order to try to look strong : it is innatural.
Don't play the strong-might is right-ultrafascist one if you turn into a crybaby when someone tries to shut you up. This makes you a victim.
A prey that want to dress as a predator.

An open mind it's not passive acceptance, like the world outside want you to believe.

An open mindset is the result of a pragmatic and self controlled, almost cold, view and of an ideological analysis.

For example, an open mind it's not a mind that refuse exorcism practices because those are part of a savage past, but on the contrary, it takes them in consideration, because there must be a wise reason for ancient remedies.

There are two kind of close mentalities. The first is just an exaggerated display of fake strength in order to appear dangerous or radical. The reactive closed mind, it is the one that comes from a necessity. Ironically, it comes from a true open minded person, able to discern and take initiative to solve a problem when it's time to use the iron fist.

The man who impose on himself an open or closed mindset is just an insecure man.
The courageous one, maintain an open mindset in order to understand, and be enough strong to be radical when it's necessary.

September is the best month along with october here on the alps. My woman collects and prepares what the land gave us, I take out from the freezer what I've killed during summer.
The farm is quiet , the mountains are silent.

No we are not catholics or whatever.

But this piece of art in this cave was too perfect to not flex.

Wish you all a crazy and fucking alive weekend.

If you want to be one of the pillars of a new tribe or clan, don't think about being though, scary, or anything else related to a personal revenge against his world of maggots.


Focus on one thing : efficency.
Efficency leads to a solid structure.
Then, you will have a bad ass fortress.

Be sure every skill, desire and attribute of your tribesmates tend toward a common goal.


Be sure they are like you.
And for you, the only way to live properly, must be with your tribe.

You didn't become. You were born.

The north east alps of Italy are a meeting point for many cultures.

Both in lenguage and places we can find a lot of names from the gallic and germanic (both medieval and high medieval) Culture.
Roman settlements (mostly military) left also an enormous legacy along with the pre romans populations, like the Ladini and Rezi and Veneti.

There are even early bulgar and avar names, like for example Varena valley ( it was Avarena in medieval and renaissence era).

Every morning I take some minutes to stay with the herd and realize how vast is our legacy and blood and how those things are bonded to this land, living through us.