i kept combing through the braids of lies you left behind. remembering how you once said "i'll never leave" but, somewhere along the way it turned into a quiet "nevermind," like our promises meant nothing at all. the field of dreams we built together slowly caught fire. and i swear it was your match that lit it while those somber eyes looked away from me. even when everything turned to ashes... i couldn't stop loving you. and maybe, that's the cruelest part. cz until the day i die, you'll still be the loss of my life, @JUHOONngempeng.

i looked at you (@yoxnwon) and whispered "i'm so sorry," cz loving you the way you deserved was something i never quite managed to do. i kept wishing... wish i could be the one to love you more, but deep down... i knew i would probably never know how to be enough for you. so, i let you go with a trembling smile =))). hoping that somewhere out there you'll find somebody who has everything you're searching for. even if it means that person will never be me.

i'm still here, quietly waiting for you to come back and bring me right back home. even though the room feels emptier every day. i get lost in the past... caught up with these memories just by sitting here alone. replaying every moment and wondering where we first began to fall apart. sometimes i wish... i could see where it all started. thinking maybe we would still be fine if i understood it. but now.... it's clear where this is going. and all that's left for me is... to keep missing you alone. wishing you (@LeeAntuon) could see me crying in my room.

when the night gets too quiet, i close my eyes... and suddenly, all i see is you. every little memory rushing back at once. i remember every "hi," every "bye," and every "i love you" you've ever said... like they're still echoing somewhere in my heart. it was always the small things that you do... that made me fall for you without even realizing it. and now, that we're apart and i'm missing you more than i can say. i keep closing my eyes again.. cz somehow all i see is you and the small things you do, @ianhao.

sometimes my mind drifts back to that moment. cz there we are again.. when i loved you (@aananoh) so, when everything between us still felt warm and real. it was before you walked away, before you lost the one real thing you've ever known, and before i learned how quiet life could be without you. what we had was rare... something i thought would last forever. i was there for every piece of it... and even now, i remember it all too well.

my days feel lost now... like my location unknown. wandering through places that never quite feel like home without you (@ahveon) beside me. every night.. i keep trying to find a way back. telling myself i have to get back to you, repeating it like a quiet promise i'm scared to break. being miles away... only makes everything heavier. and sometimes, all i want is to know that you're safe somewhere under the same sky. if i could.. i'd take the first flight back to your side, without thinking twice. i don't care how long the journey takes. cz even after everything, a part of me still believes you'd always be worth the wait.