6 #DaysUntil I get surgery. I'm excited, I'm nervous. I need to pack but it's my first major surgery and I don't have experience in packing for such so imagine the chaos... Taking guesses for how much I'll forget and how much of my packed stuff goes unused. :D

4 #DaysUntil I get surgery. I am still excited, still nervous, but now my plans have changed and instead of having a loved one around until i depart to the city where the clinic is I will be alone. Not very amused by that but it is how it is. Getting more and more nervous but at least I am entirely certain that I want this and won't regret a thing.

Oh also, irregular reminder that I'm gay.

Sorry for the inactivity right now. I'm like, kinda nervous and stuff.

2 #DaysUntil I get surgery. I have departed to the place of friends who host me for a night so I won't have to get up super early to travel. I've got lots of emotion stuff going on and am internally screaming for various reasons so I guess all is going according to plan.

1 #DaysUntil I get surgery. Currently trying to ignore my roommates visitor and otherwise keeping my shit together. But honestly - it's not that easy.

Surgery day. I'll get knocked out around 8 or so if the plans work as they told me.

Back in my room, pain meds and such. Semi-conscious only but wanted to let y'all know I'm back in my room.

I am now actually conscious, even mobile again already. Got to make up for having been sleep deprived before, I used the cozy feeling from leftover narcosis because this is the most justified nap ever.
I also just got rid of the machine being switched on pills now!

Update. I am somewhat fine and way more conscious now. Pain is okay-ish with the right medication. Mainly I feel very exhausted and am still struggling to realize that it's finally over now. Well, except for the healing part.