I had really suicidal and depressed moments in the past. I still have them and im a really toxic person and I hate myself so much. That resulted in 7 suicide attempts, cutting myself a lot and saying messed up stuff to friends because it felt like a safe space and I wanted to feel bad and break rules. I literally wanted humanity to burn and people to suffer even tho I'm usually the opposite of that. That doesn't excuse some stuff I did or said but I'm still really sorry in advance because I will most likely get doxxed and exposed soon and I understand if I get blocked by people or banned from groups. I'm really sorry I mean it.

I wanna sleep forever and never wake up again

the person who kept saying he loves me the most and that im his best friend until yesterday now exposed/doxxed me because I didn't give him enough attention and I didn't reply to him fast enough and that I talked in groups instead of staying in his dms. He also wanted me to expose other people for him but I said no. The same person told me he loves me until yesterday... until I blocked him on his alts because he kept threatening and blackmailing me. Now the same person also spreads lies about me and DMs other people trying to make me look bad. Thanks for this lesson. I will never trust anyone ever again.

People kept telling me "block him" or "why do you still talk to him". I kept saying you don't understand and that I can't get rid of him. I was basically his hostage for months and he kept threatening me with stuff. Now I got rid of him which made him go crazy. And now you also know why I was scared to block him before.

this is what im dealing with

he has pics of my face and pics of me in panties. He kept threatening and blackmailing me with them until I blocked him yesterday.

Why do I deserve getting my pics and chats exposed because I didn't wanna interact with a person anymore. I just wanted him to leave me in peace and my punishment for that is getting everything exposed. How is that fair.

im sorry btw for spamming this shit in this channel and annoying everyone idk where else to vent

if you dont wanna read about this stuff you can leave my channel I wont be mad or sad

Humans are so cold. When you are at your lowest they try to put you even lower. Instead of supporting you they turn their back on you. When you need them the most they act like you dont exist.

Don't believe everything you see or read. If you have questions about anything please just dm me and ask and I will explain everything. Things are getting out of control and I don't like it. People dont even question anything and just believe whatever they see without listening to my version.

who wants my channel

im deleting the discussion group now I dont want people to spam stuff when im gone

WTF IS THIS SHIT

I can't transfer ownership so I will just give a girl I've known for some months all admin rights and hope that she gets ownership after my account is deleted. I told her she can post whatever she wants or just stay inactive idc but I downloaded like 100 meme videos and pics and sent them to her so if she wants she can post those.

People who follow this channel but have no idea about the current owner or what's going on can ignore the upcoming messages xD

stop using the clown emoji that shit pisses me off ffs

okay so I just wanna say sorry about all the drama the past few days. When I joined telegram I just wanted to make some friends and that was always my goal. I joined groups and tried to get popular and tried getting peoples attention by sending memes, friendly trolling or trying to be funny. I wanted other people to like me probably because I have 0 friends irl and I kinda wanted to prove to myself that I can make friends. I swear that was always my goal. I never had any bad intentions and I never wanted to hurt anyone. I even dmed people when I saw them being sad or depressed in groups and some even vented to me about stuff and I never used that against them.
My brain is really weird tho when other people don't do the same for me I get hurt easily and I immediately think that person doesn't like me or that im bothering them. I get hurt when others don't message me on their own or just completely stop talking to me. I'm just a toxic person I always blamed my real life circumstances for that and other stuff like bullying but maybe it's just how I am naturally. But like I said I never had any bad intentions and always wanted to be helpful and make others laugh. That's also why I created this channel lol
After everything that happened the past few days it's obvious I'm not wanted anymore tho and the majority in groups or DMs tells me that I should just disappear so that's what im gonna do. I won't be accepted back and even if I stay in groups or rejoin some other ones I know that I'm not welcome and that's okay because I messed up. Why would I stay in a place the majority doesn't want me in so it's for the best to delete my account and leave.
I don't know what my next steps are after deleting my account but atleast I wont be able to bother anyone here anymore. Some people said it's not a big deal it's just online but it's not that easy when you dont have anyone irl and this was all the interaction you had with humans 😹
I hope the people I disappointed can forgive me one day even if im not here anymore. Thanks for reading my (most likely) really cringe text xD

OMG I wrote a damn book 😭😹 I don't expect anyone to read that LMAO

Queen - Face It Alone

Peace Out ✌🏻