If you get rid of people like me, we show up as lessons for you later on, because the truth remains constant over anything else.
What we have is a contagion of the heart, mind and spirit, given to us at birth and it’s our job to inoculate ourselves against it. I used to have it and I am healing from it. I’m doing the work.
Trauma reinfected me.
Rape reinfected me.
Abuse reinfected me.
Fractured generational consciousness reinfected me.
The media reinfected me.
Psych drugs reinfected me.
Education systems reinfected me.
People I hung out with reinfected me.
Real Housewives reinfected me.
Consumerism reinfected me.
Toxic masculinity reinfected me.
Victim consciousness reinfected me.
Weak femininity and learned helplessness reinfected me.
And I chased them all.
They were the drugs I craved so I could feel alive because I didn’t know who I was.
I didn’t know I am the I am.
Folks, we finally learn to choose ourselves and create our love story with ourselves, our Creator and with Source and we do the work to truly find the reason we are here or we die.
I choose life.
I choose health.
I choose reality over fantasy.
I choose pain over repeating the insanity of staying infected.
At the end of the day, we all have a choice, we’re not powerless.
YOU EITHER CHOOSE YOUR LIFE OR YOU CHOOSE YOUR DEATH.
Trauma reinfected me.
Rape reinfected me.
Abuse reinfected me.
Fractured generational consciousness reinfected me.
The media reinfected me.
Psych drugs reinfected me.
Education systems reinfected me.
People I hung out with reinfected me.
Real Housewives reinfected me.
Consumerism reinfected me.
Toxic masculinity reinfected me.
Victim consciousness reinfected me.
Weak femininity and learned helplessness reinfected me.
And I chased them all.
They were the drugs I craved so I could feel alive because I didn’t know who I was.
I didn’t know I am the I am.
Folks, we finally learn to choose ourselves and create our love story with ourselves, our Creator and with Source and we do the work to truly find the reason we are here or we die.
I choose life.
I choose health.
I choose reality over fantasy.
I choose pain over repeating the insanity of staying infected.
At the end of the day, we all have a choice, we’re not powerless.
YOU EITHER CHOOSE YOUR LIFE OR YOU CHOOSE YOUR DEATH.
In my lineage there is programming on the feminine side that in order to survive you must have a man...at all costs.
No matter the pain, no matter the confusion, the isolation, the abuse, the drama, the lies, the deceit, the amount of money or lack thereof you’d better hook up and stay cemented to that person, even if it means your own demise.
My programming tells me that men who can’t show up for me, try to dominate me, control me and use me are the ones I need to fight for, to try and mother, parent, and fix, like a puzzle I kept constantly trying to find the missing pieces for. And not one to give up easily, I will fight almost to my death.
I fought like hell for a spell, a delusion I was under.
You can see this in the world now—people self abusing in order to fight for an absolute and utter spell and delusion they are under too. It’s programming, conditioning that has kept men and women in this constant push/pull, runner/chaser role for eons. It is, more than anything an addiction to anything or anyone that takes us away from ourselves and from being at cause in our lives and puts the focus on the outside.
This is part of the programming I am shedding, and it’s a huge part of my healing. I see it so magnificently working it’s way through my daughter, Emma as well.
I am learning to drop the game, this spell and come home to the I am.
And I know and trust, that as I do, the partner I seek does the work on his side as well, breaking his own spells and programming to come info his full power as well.
And I learn to love the dance alone, for now.
And I know the more I truly love my own dance, the more powerful it will be with him.
No matter the pain, no matter the confusion, the isolation, the abuse, the drama, the lies, the deceit, the amount of money or lack thereof you’d better hook up and stay cemented to that person, even if it means your own demise.
My programming tells me that men who can’t show up for me, try to dominate me, control me and use me are the ones I need to fight for, to try and mother, parent, and fix, like a puzzle I kept constantly trying to find the missing pieces for. And not one to give up easily, I will fight almost to my death.
I fought like hell for a spell, a delusion I was under.
You can see this in the world now—people self abusing in order to fight for an absolute and utter spell and delusion they are under too. It’s programming, conditioning that has kept men and women in this constant push/pull, runner/chaser role for eons. It is, more than anything an addiction to anything or anyone that takes us away from ourselves and from being at cause in our lives and puts the focus on the outside.
This is part of the programming I am shedding, and it’s a huge part of my healing. I see it so magnificently working it’s way through my daughter, Emma as well.
I am learning to drop the game, this spell and come home to the I am.
And I know and trust, that as I do, the partner I seek does the work on his side as well, breaking his own spells and programming to come info his full power as well.
And I learn to love the dance alone, for now.
And I know the more I truly love my own dance, the more powerful it will be with him.
weep for humanity. I cry for all those so viciously caught in the web of lies so thick they can’t apply logic or reasoning, who can’t see the corruption behind the powers running this carnival act. That they would take free loving people, many of whom have survived so much grief, loss to health or loss of loved ones due to these systems already and vilify them as white privileged, selfish apartheidists, when in fact that is what they do.
It is a dastardly deed they are doing.
I also see a new earth forming, a new reality, a timeline if you will, and I know in my very being that all things, all loss, grief, heartache and trauma I have experienced did the spiritual priming to bring me into my being, a reflection of my Creator.
I am a human.
I am being.
I am here for you, and you are here for me, and we can each hold the container for others that fall to their knees when the floor falls out, when the grief knocks us over.
Please never forget why you are here, and if you still are wondering why, go look at a child’s face, smudged with a popsicle, hear the bark of a dog, touch your loved ones as if it’s the last time you’ll get to. Close your eyes, think of a loved one passed or not near you, feel their essence, for love knows no boundaries, it is behind space and time.
Now is the time.
We are awakening, and no one can prevent these souls rising.
It is a dastardly deed they are doing.
I also see a new earth forming, a new reality, a timeline if you will, and I know in my very being that all things, all loss, grief, heartache and trauma I have experienced did the spiritual priming to bring me into my being, a reflection of my Creator.
I am a human.
I am being.
I am here for you, and you are here for me, and we can each hold the container for others that fall to their knees when the floor falls out, when the grief knocks us over.
Please never forget why you are here, and if you still are wondering why, go look at a child’s face, smudged with a popsicle, hear the bark of a dog, touch your loved ones as if it’s the last time you’ll get to. Close your eyes, think of a loved one passed or not near you, feel their essence, for love knows no boundaries, it is behind space and time.
Now is the time.
We are awakening, and no one can prevent these souls rising.
When you really start to understand the way reality works and how it is a maze you have constructed prior to incarnating in order to expand and grow you truly can step into your own power.
Life becomes fun, spontaneous and exciting.
There is no us versus them, there is no lack, no suffering, it is only you experiencing reality as a reflection of your Creator.
Please don’t be scared of the work, the pain, and the grief you may be experiencing, for just as we break down a muscle during weightlifting in order to build it back up, so too must we experience a breakdown in order to build the resiliency, strength and expansion necessary to bring us into our highest selves. These lower level densities use fear as a tool to try to keep us locked in with them. Send them love and light and be on your way up and out of that nonsense.
Do not be moved by the reality (or unreality) around you. You stay unmoved, and the reality will shift around you.
Do you realize how truly powerful you really are? Have you grasped how you create the reality you live in, no matter the external circumstances you may SEE on the external, that when we shift the internal the external shifts with us?
You are here for a purpose.
You are magic embedded in a physical body.
Don’t be deceived by the hype around you, and ha ha ha...I’m not here to “sell” you anything, I’m just here to remind myself and us all how exquisitely masterful we really are.
I love you and send you all my love. ❤️
Life becomes fun, spontaneous and exciting.
There is no us versus them, there is no lack, no suffering, it is only you experiencing reality as a reflection of your Creator.
Please don’t be scared of the work, the pain, and the grief you may be experiencing, for just as we break down a muscle during weightlifting in order to build it back up, so too must we experience a breakdown in order to build the resiliency, strength and expansion necessary to bring us into our highest selves. These lower level densities use fear as a tool to try to keep us locked in with them. Send them love and light and be on your way up and out of that nonsense.
Do not be moved by the reality (or unreality) around you. You stay unmoved, and the reality will shift around you.
Do you realize how truly powerful you really are? Have you grasped how you create the reality you live in, no matter the external circumstances you may SEE on the external, that when we shift the internal the external shifts with us?
You are here for a purpose.
You are magic embedded in a physical body.
Don’t be deceived by the hype around you, and ha ha ha...I’m not here to “sell” you anything, I’m just here to remind myself and us all how exquisitely masterful we really are.
I love you and send you all my love. ❤️
Humans are up leveling, and those that aren’t are dying a slow death, heads down, full of stagnant generational trauma and patterns who believe, like I once did, that this is all you get. That this is how it’s supposed to be. The incessant drone of wake up, eat, consume, shop, f*ck, sleep and repeat.
And to that I say, Hell no. I refuse to compromise my soul or settle for less than the magnificence I am.
I am here for better, for more, for the push that propels me out of bed every morning because I’ve seen, I’ve tasted my freedom and I’m never going back.
I’m not talking a push to prove, a push to buy, a push to make more money, be prettier, get a better job, partner, house, that’s all bullshit tentacles that keep us inside the matrix, attached to a fu*king illusion we’ll never get to.
I’m talking get out of bed to be me.
To create.
To love.
To wring the absolute last drop out of this life that I possibly can, to love as BIG as possible and when I’m done, my intention is to leave this place better than I found it.
And for someone that tried to end my life multiple times I’m gonna call that some big time evolving taking place within me.
The secret they don’t want you to know is that you are the question and you are the answer and YOU hold all of the power.
You are the I am.
And to that I say, Hell no. I refuse to compromise my soul or settle for less than the magnificence I am.
I am here for better, for more, for the push that propels me out of bed every morning because I’ve seen, I’ve tasted my freedom and I’m never going back.
I’m not talking a push to prove, a push to buy, a push to make more money, be prettier, get a better job, partner, house, that’s all bullshit tentacles that keep us inside the matrix, attached to a fu*king illusion we’ll never get to.
I’m talking get out of bed to be me.
To create.
To love.
To wring the absolute last drop out of this life that I possibly can, to love as BIG as possible and when I’m done, my intention is to leave this place better than I found it.
And for someone that tried to end my life multiple times I’m gonna call that some big time evolving taking place within me.
The secret they don’t want you to know is that you are the question and you are the answer and YOU hold all of the power.
You are the I am.