Fun thing about this is that knowing a bunch of stuff doesn't help. Knowing that I should do stuff, that stuff is important for my life, my health, whatever else doesn't help a bit. Having an adult mind trapped inside executive and regulation functions of a child sometimes is unbearable.

Me to my therapist: I know everything there is to know about adhd and still can't do anything about it. It is hella frustrating to say the least

And also have a separate place for them as a mechanism developed after years of loosing them

Possible BG3 spoiler (if there are people who haven't finished it yet?)

I tried to play BG3 for 3-4 times but got overwhelmed each time even before finishing the first act. Current attempt that I started 100 hrs of playtime ago is coming to an end and I just wanted to note and remember for myself one of the greatest gaming experience I had for years now I'd say.

Raphael's final act. The music, ah this music, the VA singing there, the whole buildup and the battle and all the stuff. BG3 is a great game, I totally get why did it get so many awards. It's a work of art in every aspect. I know that I'm subjectal here, emotional, but I haven't felt something like this caused by a game for a long long time and I appreciate this game for making me feel this good and especially the music that makes me cry a little with overwhelming joy.